Most people who know me have heard my story about our giant pain
in the butt house that we’ve been unable to sell for six years. It hasn’t been
on the market that whole time, so it’s not that
bad. We’ve rented it out off and on. But now…
Turned out that fourth time was the charm for us. The first
week we re-listed the house, we got an offer! And it was a great offer! The
whole thing was surreal for a few days, but then it finally sunk in- we sold
the house!!!!!
We marked the closing date on our calendar and prayed
fervently that all would go smoothly up until that point. The inspection came
and went, and it was great! There was some minor work to be done, but it was
taken care of quickly enough. And then. Then. The appraiser came.
Turns out our house is a trailer. Oh, we got a loan for it
as a stick-built house. We were told it was a stick-built house. The appraiser
certified it. The county approved it. We paid (and are still paying) lots of
money for it. But it’s considered a trailer. We knew that a house had been
built around a trailer, but as youngins, we just believed the good folks who
assured us that it was no longer considered a trailer for all legal purposes.
Burned.
Honestly, we don’t know at this point what the heck happened
all those years ago. It may have been an honest mistake. It may have been a
purposeful deception. All we know is that it hurts. It’s frustrating and
bewildering and deeply disappointing. Not only is this deal going to fall
through, but no one will ever be able to get a loan for this house (trailer).
So I was sitting on the couch feeling sorry for myself this
afternoon, and I decided to drown out my thoughts with my facebook news feed. I
was numbly scrolling along when I got down to this status: “We need to pray for a miracle- they say there is nothing to
do for Coleson. If we get out of the hospital it will be waiting till the Lord
takes him. We could hope for a year.”
Coleson is an infant with some major
heart and other health problems. I don’t know him, but I came across his story
last night and joined the facebook group to pray for him. He had an important
surgery today, but it didn’t go well. That status was the result.
So here’s me, whining about how our
house didn’t sell. And here’s this mom, finding out that her son might have up
to a year to live.
House. Child. House. Child. House.
Child.
I’m feeling pretty blessed right now.
I’m feeling tremendously blessed right now.
I’m not going to pretend like all my frustrations
disappeared. They didn’t. This evening I had a good cry about this whole
fiasco. This is a big deal for us. A thirty year debt (nine down, twenty-one to
go!) has had and will continue to have a pretty big effect on our family.
Not to mention the whole expectations being let down thing.
Stinking unmet expectations strike again! And they hurt, big or small. And that’s
ok. It’s ok to feel let down, as long as you get back up again.
This status about little Coleson put my world back into
perspective. My house didn’t sell, but my kids are doing just fine. Toby fell
down some steps yesterday and scraped his head. That’s it, our only medical “problem”
we’ve had for some time. What an indescribable blessing!
God has provided a home, food, church, loving family,
comfort, vehicles, private education for our kids, and on and on! When I say
those things, it’s not because I’m a bubbly person. Definitely not. I’m also
not a naturally optimistic person. When I feel down, I have to pray and make a
concentrated effort to look on the bright side.
So there it was, my bright side. And it’s one heck of a
bright side. I am so spoiled here in
my Lynchburg bubble, and I can handle this one disappointment. There are MUCH
bigger things going on in the world than this. It’s all going to be ok. Not
because my house will sell, but because God is in control. He has proven time again in my life that He is good, and He
can be trusted.
Beka, you are truly God's child. A child who is not afraid to open her heart to the world. Sometimes you present a broken heart as you did in this post. But at the same time you present an alternative. There is always an alternative. There is always someone whose suffering is so great that our suffering is pale in comparison. And that is the truth you allow your heart to feel. Thank you. Thank you for this post, thank you for being you, thank you for letting me be part of your incredible life, thank you for your inspiring thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI agree. A lot of people are unaware of how lucky they are. Keep your head up, Beka. I'm sure a silver lining will come for you and your house. What had happened to little Coleson is really unfortunate and it's also unfortunate that your house turned out to be a trailer. They are both saddening events that are on completely different levels. I'm glad you're thankful that your kids are unharmed, but it's okay to sometimes air out your disappointments as well. Just as long as you keep in check all of the things that you should be happy for. Wishing you all the best! :)
ReplyDeleteCharlena Leonard @ Weidner Law